Location: Nariman Point, Mumbai
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The above picture was clicked by my friend when I was deep in my thoughts of life wasn’t fair and How being a child to all these new profound emotions irking for the past few days. Probably, the only time I relaxed and felt good as Mumbai air was serene and peace.
Let it Go.
They said; Whatever that’s taunting your heart, let it go. Let it pass. But what if I’m surrounded with this mess daily. I asked.
I couldn’t help but express my hardships into many platforms. However, I felt they want to help but were happy that I’d sort of this mess. (Do I sound immature?)
I bailed from one place and its people and ran to another one only to realise the history keeps repeating and my happiness short lived. (Why?). Is God punishing you for being uncertain or you keep luring of your burdens and past entitities. When you don’t have a strong backbone or folks to hold you up but you want to prove life you can outstand. Tough?
God knows I’d become cynical in many ways than one. Not really, but today I may become because I need to survive, succeed and not let my folks look down at me.
(Is it bad?)
I don’t have it in me anymore. I fail to believe the faith in anything all in all lost hopes. The constant verbal diarrhoea can dehydrate your happy soul and bring sorrows often.
Everybody has problems. I too have a chronic alcoholic abusive pop or financial restraints or family situations that I can’t share instead these instances make my routine life more miserable. I understand it’s a living I need to cope upto become mature or deal life mentally strong. After all only the strong withstand at the end of the day. I need to enjoy the moment and let go of what’s bothering instead of overthinking my scary future. Is it so immature to deal this daily ?
Everyday I sail in ocean of blues and I’m fed up of this withered heart. I need some air like positive vibes. I’m not able to control my emotions or anger may be it’s the water sign that plays in my life.
Today I made a decision to make my life worth living.
SMILE. Ignore those who deliberately wants to make your life misery.
STOP. Stop caring about those who doesn’t give a rat arse to your life. Stop assuming. Breathe and be practical. DON’T BEAT YOURSELF TOO MUCH!
Now, I’ve started WRITING after taking two week break and flying to Bombay for a conference. I’ve decided to change my life because I was highway to Hell. And you’re capable of fighting hard for your dreams)
Stick to a PLAN. Discipline your uncertainities. Challenge yourself!
I’ve rekindled to GOD, to be grateful and to learn good instead of breaking down.
My Life isn’t bed of roses or going to ease cause of the immature people around me as there is going to be more drama day after day but I’ve to find inner peace amongst the madness.
It’s not easy.
MEDITATE. If taking 15 minutes of deep breathing for start can ease up your life.
READ POSITIVE AND SPREAD JOYS.
I’ve to jot down what’s wrong and It’s not easy but I’ve to try until it becomes a routine. FOCUS on small things, accomplish that can bring joys. DETERMINATION
Work until it brings a smile on your face.
Miles. Miles to go before I sleep.
-Wayward thoughts of Kikibee 🙂
This is in response to
Edition #146 indiblogger
Regretting the past and worrying about the future will further flatten the time in which you are living and celebrate today and try to employ the most of it.Write a post on the celebration of Today ..This moment is the only truth. #CelebrateTodayThisMoment
Weekly photo challenge of Daily Post RELAX
For Blogchatter Prompt Beginning Today
P.S: I’ve never kept my resolutions but this one I’d secretly pursue until this strikes off my list.